I WISH THIS FKNG BRAIN TUMOR WOULD JUST KILL ME AND GE TIT OVER WITH DAMMIT..ENOUGH I HAVE HAD ENOUGH

 I WISH THIS FKNG BRAIN TUMOR WOULD JUST KILL ME AND GE TIT OVER WITH DAMMIT..ENOUGH I HAVE HAD ENOUGH

sshhh i digress

i just played someone's link to an 80's song i didn't know.

i know this is a huge huge sin spiritually but i really really really really 
wish i could turn the clock back to 20 and know what i now know and do it over.

i know that's  not real.   i don't visit this stupidity often

i am having a much bigger problem turning 51; in about 6 weeks, then i did turning 50.  i loved turning 50.
i hate turning 51.

censoring negative thoughts here.

i can't even talk about the hole in me

i put it there

i am having trouble filling it in

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8gvKpKnKocU&feature=related