ME WORDS

DO IT #1-ISH

I AM GOING TO TRY HARDER TO DO THINGS ON MY,  DO IT LIST.

ONE THING IS VISIT NEW YORK CITY.

THAT IS JUST GOING TO TAKE MONEY

THE ONE THING THAT WILL TAKE WORK AND A LOT OF MONEY. IS A TRIP TO EUROPE.

FIRST WE NEED PASSPORTS.  I GUESS THEY ARE AROUND $200 PLUS WHATEVER THE PHOTO COSTS.. TIMES 2 = MORE THAN WE CAN AFFORD.

SO EVERYTHING I WANT TO DO WILL TAKE MONEY.

SO FIRST I NEED TO  MAKE SOME MONEY

GET PASSPORTS AND GO FROM THERE.

I WILL DO THIS.  I HAVE NO IDEA HOW,

 BUT I HAVE TO.

 HEY I HAVE NOT POSTED ANYTHING IN AWHILE.  IT TOOK ME AWHILE TO DO THIS TODAY...BUT IT IS HERE NOW.. WARTS AND ALL!!

 

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 i have no idea when i wrote this..i found it saved but not put out there...so i thought I'd post it.  this isn't me right now though.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM DOING HERE TODAY
I LIE

I AM BUSY BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE I AM CHEATING
DOING WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY
BUT I AM NOT BRINGING IN AN INCOME

I AM TRYING TO NOT FORCE THINGS AND LET THINGS PLAY OUT

I AM NOT BEING LAZY
AFTER 4 YEARS OF NO LIFE I HAVE A LOT OF CLUTTER
TO CLEAN OUT

LITERALLY AND NOT

I DIDN'T CHANGE THE COLOR
WHAT-EVER

 g..
HE TAUGHT ME ABOUT FEAR
I GUESS FEAR IS FEAR
BUT WHAT IS ON MY MIND IS PHOBIC KIND OF FEAR
I'VE BEEN OVER PROTECTED KIND OF FEAR
I WON'T LET IT STOP ME BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE IT GO AWAY

NO ONE HAS ANY IDEA HOW SHELTERED AND OVER PROTECTED I AM

I HAVE THINGS I WANT TO DO LIKE GO TO NYC THAT SCARES ME
IT IS NOT THAT SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN TO ME
IT IS THAT I'LL GET IN A SITUATION..LOST..W/O MONEY
ANYTHING I CAN'T HANDLE OR KNOW HOW TO GET OUT OF

THIS IS WAY TOO GABBY AND ICKY
BARFOLA..LATER..