talking to myself

no one reads this so i might as well talk to myself and work some things out.
do it

things i need to work harder on

meditate meditate meditate
you are not crawling inside enough in a real way
you are half assing it
this is part of your problem
you are giving away too much of your energy

exercise  even if it just a walk - do it
go to the park as much as you can
it is a better workout
don't let cold stop you
you have a warm coat
you like doing this so it's not like work

stop ignoring things you like for you

 get back to your Mary project
you
your life
your goals
not about against Mark
it is just for you

you need  an income
at the very least something to get you out of the house

you are afraid of the world
admit it
you know about fear
stupid shit - stop it
read Ma Jaya's book as a refresher
Ma Jaya and Jackie are your examples of what kind of woman
 you could be - want to be
do it

get your shit together
get back to the art business shit
your fear again
you don't know how to get to the result you want?
so what?? one step -  then the next
don't worry about the finish line
you know what you have to do
get work done  - take pics -  talk to people
send in submissions etc
talk to galleries
you know what guru says,  take the fork in the road

 find space
get space
make space
find a way

you have unfinished projects
finish them
don't worry about selling them
 you aren't making anything off of undone work
 do the toad story book
do the dvd of your videos
get a show
make some prints of your photos

YOUR LIFE IS MORE AWESOME THAN YOU EVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE
GET WHAT YOU WANT  -- YOU HAVE WHAT YOU NEED

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